Nightmares again! FUSION!!!!

Last night i had more nightmares and only got two hours sleep. Thats pretty pants and it was the scariest thing ever! I went to Sandra who is the kinda pastor type person here and she prayed in my room.
FUSION!!!!!!!!!!! Was brilliant last night. We had 13 young kids between 11 -15 and it was a great laugh. Jen has taken it over as it used to be called 'Dont Miss It!' (pants name!) and there was no talk of God in it but she has changed it to Fusion and has a 20 minute 'God slot' at the end. Kinda like refuel! Very cool!
Was supposed to practice on the drums but they have been taken down ready to go to the Big joining of the churches where ive to play!

Out of place

Bryony has gone (she was here for the summer) and now i feel out of place. Its strange but i know God has planned for this. I dont know His plan but i sure wish i did. Its amazing how in a place so full of people, one can feel alone.
I spent most of my free time today up on my roof. The weather has been incredible so i spent some quality time with my Lord. He made it clear to me that if He controls the very movement of the leaves on the trees then how much more is He in control of my life. It was very comforting because the best place for anyone to be is in the palm of His hand.
I went mountain biking and climbed upa big hill a few days ago with one of the instructors (Mark VB). IT was an amazing day that i almost missed out on. I didnt want to go when i realised a big bunch of guys were going but in the end they all chickened out and Bryony came up with Mark to let me know. It was an amazing day. It was raining and i was filthy after the bike ride but it was definately a good day. Chatting with Mark was nice. He is a very decent guy and i could have serious conversations as well as daft ones with him which was good.
Bryony was the coolest person here. I dont even think she realises how amazing a person she is. She is very funny and very real and i already miss her a great deal. I could relax easier when she was there. I dont know why really. I guess im always like that. When i think back to Falkirk i pretty much always have been that way havent i? I feel confortable when theres someone i can relate to or someone i feel secure around. I dont know how to word it. I dont like large groups of people. It overwhelms me at times but i can relax better when theres someone nearby i trust. Does that make sense?
Now i am totally rambling!
There are some lovely people here and i can see God is doing something but i dont know where my place is. Ive only been here three and a bit weeks so i should really give myself a bit more time to settle. I have Gods peace thankfully. God is amazing! I love the way He always listens when we pray and is always eager to spend time with us.

The Dungeon!!!

DUN DUN DUUUUUUUUUN!!! Yup i did it! I managed to stay a whole evening in a proper dungeon! Me, bryony and her sis stayed over in the castle dungeon that Jane works in. We had dinner in a cool hall firstly with two people who were good fun and went to church with Jane but they didnt stay over. It was class!

great!

Just been paid but my egg card took the money out on the 29th which i forgot so crap charges there have now put me in to an overdraft i dont have thus sticking loads of charges on me and leaving me with no money to live off! Awesome! Just what i need when stuck out here! Absolutely no money and no way of fixing it!

Testimoney

I was asked to give my testimoney to the whole staff at the staff fellowship this evening. IT went fine i think. Nobody boo-ed me off stage anyways! HEEHEE
Tomorrow im off work and hoping to get out on a forest trek!

Inverness Church

Was A-MAZ-ING!!!!!!!!!!!!! To say the least. Probably the best church i have ever been to! The worship was so free and easy to enter in. The unity in that place is something i had not felt ina worship wervice in a very long time. The Elder spoke on growing in grace and the communion was done at the end of the service. Pastor Tom read from the bible how it was a fellowship meal regarding christ and the body which is His people. The servants stood down the front and everyoen who wanted communion was to come to thr front and commune to the brothers and sisters near them tell them how much they loved christ and what He had done for them. An amazing way to do communion! Afterwards we stayed at the vry funky church cafe and had lunch! The people there were so talkative and alive! I really aint dong the worship any favours here. You need to understand how amazed i was. There was a flow there! No main voice leading! No worship leader trying to talk people ito singing the way he wanted! No body trying to force the service into a hype! Pure worship from their hearts. I couldnt make out a main persn and i got completely lost in worshipping my Lord. Lost in a way i hadnt been in years. Massive mix of songs that were completely spirit led not led by what key they came in and whether they were easy to play or 'the song of the season because it was written in the church.' Just normal everyday people worshipping God. I swear i could hear the angels joining in! I want to go to heaven right now! I want ot worship Him like that forever!

yesterday

Went out on the canoes witha mad bunch of kids. They were hilarious and we were jumping from one canoe to the other. I almost fell in but thankfully made it into my own one without getting soaked. A load of them wernt so lucky and fell right in the freezing cold lake! The sun was out so they dred up pretty quickly.

Bikes and Time out

We went out on the mountain bikes round Nethybridge yesterday which was nice. Got to see some of the local scenery which is just beautiful. Later on that night i helped with Time out and it went great. We were telling 60 children that god thinks they are special. Today they will learn what god says in the bible and tomorrow im in a drama teaching them about sin and how God can cleanse us from sin. Had a great chat with Afke (from Holland) and Bryonny (from New Zealand) last night. Unfortunately they leave soon tho! BOO!!!
Ive finished work for today and im gonna chill on my fabulous rooftop with my bounty drink my momma sent me!

church

Well church was astronomically boring!!!! The minister was telling us that if we are persecuted then we should just leave and go somewhere else because we shouldnt suffer persecution. Am i wrong but didnt Jesus say 'Blessed are those who are persecuted for righteousness sake'? Or something like that? Arnt there many many people all over the world beign persecuted for Christs sake and they could easily come home to their family but are following Gods call and staying put? Well im sure you can tell that the service annoyed me. Thankfully the staff fellowship later in the evening was a little less boring but with no teaching so i got some worship time. They have Sunday schools so hopefully i will do some of that stuff so i dont have to go to church! OOH BAD PO!

Church day

Today will be my first church experience in Nethybridge. Im not particularlt looking forward to it as i really wanted to go to a church in Inverness that is more spirit filled and the services are more for people like me. The church im going to will be like a livened up church of scotland service *YAWN*. I hope im proved wrong!
Last night i was introduced to some Abernethy games! Some were tricky and i was the first one to catch onto once particular game regarding forks! We then played sardines with the whole house in darkness. One girl was so good at hiding that shenobody could find her for a whole hour! The game was hilarious!
I went through a phase of being very homesick last night but it went quickly.

Being stretched

Being stretched by God is probably one of the hardest things i have had to endure (and ive not even finished 1 week yet!). My time here is going to be eventful. Already i have been put on the spot about my testimoney to a small group which made me feel incredibly vulnerable. Vulnerability can be a good thing tho and i had never realised that before. It can be a good thing because it makes me lean and listen carefully for Gods reassurance. And God never lets me down as i have constantly heard Him say 'Im here with you' throughout my time here so far. I used to struggle to hear Gods voice but here i am sarurated in the word constantly. I have my own personal quiet time each morning and evening. Everywhere i go i am amazed and Gods creation. Yet im still me, im not invincible or ready to take on the world. I still feel like the little new kid who doesnt fit in (and probably wont all year).

I have arrived! TADAAAAA!!!! Was a bit nervous when i was all alone and to be honest i still am pretty nervous.
The power house was an absolute blast tonight. It was for christian families so different from usual.

I spent the day at mommas house wi Bea. She is the coolest dog in all the land! Eddie wis pretendin to be ill but still managed to drink plenty tea!

Im packed and almost ready to go. Holiday club was a hit and i had SUCH a great time. wish i could be there next year but i cant! BOOHOO!!! Tonight we are doin the drama at church for everyone to laugh at me in a dress.

M & D's

The Workman clan took me to M&D's for the day. It was good fun but poor wee Cameron couldnt get on the big rollercoaqster! BOO!! Valerie was a big girl and went on the tsunami with her first loop the loops!

Mary braided all my hair and its well cool! for some reason i havent taken a picture of the front but i will do and post it here soon.

Spent the day doing crafts for the holiday club. I absolutely love doing anything that involves paints and glue! Im just a kid at heart.

Time is running out!

Wooh! Its almost time for me to head off to Abernethy! I have no idea what i should be taking with me so im just taking everything!!! Before i go, i have one more working week, then i visit Master Wilson (childrens leader master of all! Were not worthy! Were not worthy! Were scum! We suck!) Then its holiday club time and i get the pleasure of dressing up as atomb Raider and i can run around like Indiana Jones! WOOP WOOP!

New Arrival!!!!!

My sister gave birth to a cute wee girl (called Katie) on Friday. She weight 8lbs 14 and is a wee chunkey monkey!!!!!! I cant wait to go back through to Stirling and see her! Its enough to make me not want to go to Abernethy anymore! Ashley loved being a sister and had a special sister necklace from Katie when she went to the hospital. I think she feels a bit strange tho as when i was leaving she got a bit upset. I had spent all the time with Ashley while lots of people came to see the new baby.

Dreams

I had a bit of a disturbing dream last night. One of those ones that still creeps into your skin through the day. thankfully i can just chill today and wait for the sun to come out.
the Source was amazing last night! Truly fantastic! the children were in the zone man! heehee! The team were gelled too and it makes me realize just how much im going to miss being a part of it all. i learn tonnes of stuff for my own daily walk from the source work pages and i love seeing the children understand and remember things the following week. I love watching them worship and praise and put their own actions to proper worship songs. They are all just so cool!
Tonight is Refuel and the Rock! WOOP WOOP!!! Refuel is funny as the boys are hilarious! I love the banter that comes along with this age. Kinda nervous about tonight. dont know why but im expecting something big to happen i guess.

Photos from France

Jenny, Amy and me out for Joules birthday.
H with her lovely sunglasses mark!
Joules very very drunk on her birthday!
The view from Mont Chery.
the view from my bedroom balcony.

12th August 2006

The date has arrived and i leave on the 12th of August! WOOPEE!!!!!!!!!!!! Anyone wishing to spend time with me before i go had better hurry up and arrange a date as time is running out fast!
Working at the nursery kills time and gets me money to save before i go but i have no real enjoyment like i used to. I enjoy seeing my kids who i had in my room and i love playing with them but things seem to have changed considerably (regarding the staff) and the nursery just isnt like it used to be.
The source has been amazing and i will miss all the team and kiddies terribly. Its amazing watching the girls worshipping during the song time! I love playing the welcome games. Singing the 'yes- no' game with Nic is always hilarious! Spending Fridays in the church setting up for the source and leafleting is excellent fun too.
Work at Abernethy will be completely different. Its kinda scary but i know its gonna be great.